TN and mental health questions for the group

So I was retired from the Navy in late 2007 after a gamma knife surgery that didn't go well lets say. At the time I would've thought health care outside of the service would be better but I figured wrong. A disturbing trend has happened which is literally killing me to this day. Back in 2008 or early 2009 I was hospitalized after a bad attack. I was blacked out so I have no idea what was done or said. All I know is when I came to I was in the behavioral part of he hospital locked down. They said I was acting as if major depression had come over me. Of course it did, depression and this go hand in hand.

There are times when the meds I have aren't enough and the 3 months between visits make it hard to see "my" doctor. So I will go because I'm in agony and I really don't have any support in this so a safe place is welcome. But now it's the answer every time since it happened once to send me there. This was never a problem or thought when I was serving or before. They would treat the pain til the major part of an attack was gone. Now, just garbage. They have me questioning myself. Not really, but these quacks have a way of turning anything you say on you. I know I get depressed sometimes and I know why. If I had no pain I'd have no depression. Years of life before TN and a lot of time with it remind me of that. It's just irritating that this is what my life has become.